appliances as furniture.

certain songs cause you to find certain streets once the sun disappears. it's like speeding over old scars. now it is healing those marks & creating new flesh.

darkness reveals my heart.

& i don't like it.

i was swimming in a sea of ashes.

this will not be your favorite book.

you will not like this book.

this will be my ugly heart.

deceit.

give me a bicycle to get away from myself.

you will not read this.

if your eyes find these words, i am sorry.

i am hiding even still.

"the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak."

i want it clean, but you attach every string.

so many words.

i don't want the words.

just the mistake.

you felt that, but you do not feel it now.

sincere?

i wonder if i ever will be.

always hiding.

take your money & throw it in the fire.

i am a liar.

monster.

fuckfuckfuck.

the shame would blind you.

i am easy to leave.

if you only knew the eye you should keep on me.

liar.

monster.

i want you to know.

i wish i could tell you.

but i can't.

fuckfuckfuck.

am i worth fixing?

am i still welcome?

i do not want you to see the monster i am.

liar.

i do not want to break your heart all over again.

i am sorry.

monster.